I feel emptiness waiting with baited breath… waiting to attack.
Watching children change and grow is beautiful. Watching them pull away.. well now that is a different story. A necessary part of the story but it is the painful part.
Little by little pieces of my heart are ripped out and “Empty” is waiting to to fill in the holes . Empty is ugly and does not want anything good for me. Empty wants me to wallow in sadness, wants me to forget this is the cycle of life. No!
No, no, no!
I will not feel empty! I have too much left to give back.
I will fight to find my peace in this process. I cannot allow emptiness to have even one little tattered spot that Pain has ripped out.
Those rips will be healed…NOT filled with emptiness.
my Faith, my Husband, my Parents, my Friends, the Flowers Blooming, the Sunshine on my Face, the Wind in my Hair and the Love for my grown Children… these will heal my heart.
• “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8